Editing Reference:Saavedro, personal journal (section)

== Entry Eleven ==
''(Voltaic, electromagnet room)''

It is taking me too long&#33; Every minute I spend searching his house runs the risk of someone walking in and finding me. I would bring his journals to the tusk, but I&#39;m afraid he will notice them gone. Already, I&#39;m afraid of what he knows.

Of what his wife might know.

She almost caught me last time. I had linked directly into the sun room. I was walking toward his study when I heard footsteps coming down the hall. She was talking with someone. She was laughing. And for one heart-wrenching moment, I thought she was Tamra.

Then I remembered my Tamra is dead. I left her to die when I went after the brothers. I told her to go to the reef, to take our two girls there and hide. I took the necklace she gave me to remember her and I told her

Oh god, Tamra&#33; I told you it would all be okay&#33; For years, I prayed my words were not a lie. That you had made it to reef. That you were tending the ailing Lattice roots. By the weaving, Tanra, how I prayed&#33;

Until I opened his machine.

I saw Narayan through his shield.

And even though the barrier kept me locked inside, I knew. I knew that Lattice Tree had died.

Narayan can&#39;t survive without the Tree.

No one can be alive outside his shield.

Standing in Atrus&#39; house, knowing that my wife and children were dead, I felt the fog roll toward me again. And as much as I wanted to give in to its numbness, I couldn&#39;t. I couldn&#39;t let Atrus&#39; wife find me standing there. Somehow, I waded through the haze. I made my way to the study, found the book that would take me back to J&#39;nanin. It was right where I had left it. Where they might not see it fall. I placed my hand on the panel. Heard the door behind me opening. And then the study disappeared.

She almost saw me. I know it. It was much too close this time. If the book hadn&#39;t been where I had left it --

Next time, I&#39;ll bring a book from one of his other Ages with me. Just in case it happens again.