Editing Reference:Phil Henderson, personal journal

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returning...

it is odd being here again after losing myself

i don&#39;t feel like part of this, and yet i feel like i<br />
am here for something

odd

this restoration is not right  it&#39;s not that it&#39;s<br />
wrong  just that it will only rebuild  not restore

rebuilding is about slicing and fixing on the outside<br />
rebuilt trees make fences and walls

restoration is about growth and life on the inside<br />
restored trees make fruit and shade

she is making sure that  the tree has begun to<br />
grow again

________

what is d&#39;ni?

what is this kingdom?<br />
i have read of d&#39;ni the people<br />
i have lived in d&#39;ni the place<br />
i have spoken d&#39;ni the language<br />

a kingdom is made of both life and belief<br />
it is only real with both<br />
lives without belief is a kindom of cards<br />
only waiting to fall<br />
belief without lives is a kingdom of dead<br />
only waiting to live

________

i know a little but i only think i know more<br />
i see a little but i only think i see more<br />
i understand a little but i only think i understand more

i seek a little and i know i will find more

i can never know see and understand<br />
i can only ever know see and understand more

________

i talked to many people today

but i don&#39;t really know them

how can i know other people?

they are revealed only in their words and actions

i suppose only really in their actions

words are easy

i talked to many people today

________

i am growing

and i am growing anxious

and i am growing weary

and i am growing closer

and i am growing up

and i am growing impatient

and i am growing leary

and i am growing wise

and i am growing less

and less

________

my seeking feels like it comes to an end<br />
now i feel like ia m called higher<br />
to become lower

i will find them again  they are calling me<br />
i don&#39;t know why  but i will know when i find them

i remember what they showed me before<br />
and i must find that again

i hear them even now  calling me<br />
she has heard them<br />
i can&#39;t resist

i am going

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