Reference:Phil Henderson, personal journal

Phil Henderson, personal journal

Location	Phil's Relto
Author	Phil Henderson

returning...

it is odd being here again after losing myself

i don't feel like part of this, and yet i feel like i
am here for something

odd

this restoration is not right it's not that it's
wrong just that it will only rebuild not restore

rebuilding is about slicing and fixing on the outside
rebuilt trees make fences and walls

restoration is about growth and life on the inside
restored trees make fruit and shade

she is making sure that the tree has begun to
grow again

________

what is d'ni?

what is this kingdom?
i have read of d'ni the people
i have lived in d'ni the place
i have spoken d'ni the language

a kingdom is made of both life and belief
it is only real with both
lives without belief is a kindom of cards
only waiting to fall
belief without lives is a kingdom of dead
only waiting to live

________

i know a little but i only think i know more
i see a little but i only think i see more
i understand a little but i only think i understand more

i seek a little and i know i will find more

i can never know see and understand
i can only ever know see and understand more

________

i talked to many people today

but i don't really know them

how can i know other people?

they are revealed only in their words and actions

i suppose only really in their actions

words are easy

i talked to many people today

________

i am growing

and i am growing anxious

and i am growing weary

and i am growing closer

and i am growing up

and i am growing impatient

and i am growing leary

and i am growing wise

and i am growing less

and less

________

my seeking feels like it comes to an end
now i feel like ia m called higher
to become lower

i will find them again they are calling me
i don't know why but i will know when i find them

i remember what they showed me before
and i must find that again

i hear them even now calling me
she has heard them
i can't resist

i am going